Extremely Worn down

Every once in a while I suffer from extreme exhaustion and my back pays for it all the time.I broke my back in 1981.I was a Private nurse for a very prominent Judge.Judge Lu belle.The aid that the hospital provided us with was never trained and had lied about knowing her field of work.She began to prep his and secure him in his body straps...she on her own turn the remote on to have him swivel into a wheel chair.I heard a loud click and turn and my immediate reflex tried to catch this massive man of 6 foot 7 inches and 280 dead weight ...what was I thinking.Well 76 hours later I woke up in traction suspended in mid air ...I had BROKE MY BACK..well the drugs they had me on and being suspended made me feel like I was Flying..I was clearly severally medicated up.The nurse who was assigned to me was listening to some (Just Like) Starting Over, John Lennon it was fall time Lennon had been assassinated the year before the"Double Fantasy" album was still on the radio..I began to think I was back in that time as I felt the sensation of floating and smooth gliding and Lennon's Double fantasy in the background..for a moment I was extremely happy because I knew he was still with us...I began to feel extreme pain once again but this time it was so real.I woke up and realized that I was dreaming a thought that I once had in my life experience the sensation of flying..It was as if I was a cloud with an angel around me I wanted to return back to that dream..unfortunately thats not going to happen my back pain was back.I had a least got a few hours sleep I was extremely worn down...